So chances are if you follow after me with any semblance of closeness (AAH!!), you may have noticed my sporadic updates anywhere as of late.
That's because I'm in the middle of a dramatic, massive personal upheaval. I'm figuring out what I disliked about who I was and the values I used to live by, and ripping up that programming so I can learn to become who I want to be instead of who I was programmed to be by people who didn't necessarily have my best interests at heart.
Which is being kind. They didn't have my best interests at heart, there's not really any room for doubt.
I'm chipping away at the rest of my donation gift pieces, slowly,
Regardless of the outcome of the current drama, I've taken down the artwork that was posted here before this date. Watermarking all of the deviations I had posted would have taken me heaps more time than the hour and a half I spent deleting everything.
There were also a lot of sad memories in this gallery, which was keeping me from posting anything new. I loved Valenth, I really did, but the memory feels like an open wound and I just can't deal with it right now. Maybe not ever.
I'm still unsure on how I will proceed from here. I am unlikely to post again until I can get a decent watermark design worked out. I've wanted to set up a personal
This is another quiet PSA to say that I am avoiding dA beyond uploading Valenth stuff for the immediate future. I'm way too stressed out by dA right now and I need to take a serious break.
If anyone needs to contact me, find me on tumblr or valenth itself.
Yeah so I've been avoiding dA/answering my messages lately, because I am a terrible human being. I'm very sorry to everyone who commented on the last few pieces-- I'd go and answer them now but now I feel like it'd be stupid to respond since it's been a while, ahahaah.
Sometimes I get really nervous and I go and hide and the messages pile up and I keep hiding from them and it just gets worse and worse until I delete them all and pretend they never existed.
The only social interaction I'm good at is the social interaction that involves people in meatspace, and that's purely a self-defence mechanism I developed while I was working retail.
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Thanks for the Faves :3 in fact I have not forgotten that I owe you a physiological diagram of brain physiology, physiologically speaking. (what happens if you do not sleep). I just need a free day, a day without tests or protocol.